When I was a little girl, I dreamed of marriage.
I grew up in a single-parent household. My mother raised me by herself the youngest child of three (I have two older sisters), it was hard. I moved a lot, changed many different schools, lost contact with some of my very close friends, we even foreclosed the condo that we lived in, that was hard for me it was awful, the living conditions there were explainable. My view on man changed when I saw how hard my mother worked. I honestly hated men, and thought I could never trust any man, because I saw my mother doing everything. I always leaned toward women, because to me they were more comforting.
I was always so cautious when I had a male teacher or male people around me. I trusted my grandpa mainly the most when it came to male figures, and of course, God too. To be honest even seeing little girls hold their dads hands made me very jealous and angry, but God already knew how I felt. Growing up, I was never a troubled kid. I rarely caused trouble.
When I was a little girl, I dreamed of Marriage. As I grew older, I had doubts of someone wanting to marry me. You see, I wanted to be a wife so bad and the devil put thoughts into my mind making me believe that no one wanted to marry me. A few of those thoughts included insecurities about my appearance. My whole life I felt that I needed to be someone else because of how people thought of me. Well let me tell you, THE DEVIL IS A BIG FAT LIAR!
I cannot express how thankful I am to God, I just can’t thank Him enough!! I met my husband years back at Messiah College when we were teenagers. Little did I know (haha) that he would be my husband today. (I’ll add our love story in another blog hehe.) My dreams came true in 2016, God allowed me to have a man to enter in my life. Everything from there changed, my look on man changed. My views of how men behave changed because not every man out there is the same, everyone has their a personality of their own. I became more open to having conversations to men (in this way I mean like congregation members of my synagogue.) This doesn’t mean I had no boundaries because till this day I am cautious and conservative when I shake hands with a man or even hug them. Sometimes men in congregations want to hug me, but I learned that you can extent your hand to give them a handshake out of politeness. You don’t have to hug everyone you see!
Before my husband, I dated no one. I waited for my husband. He was the only person I dated, and the only person that I entered a relationship with. Before I even knew my husband, I prayed for him. Ladies, if you think there is no man for you out there that God won’t give you, your wrong because God does not want man to be alone, we (women) are the helpers of man. Pray for the right man, God will give him to you. Also, I have nothing against single women, nor single women in ministry either, everyone has their own purpose and destiny.
On February 5th, 2018
We got married.
So if your thinking now about marriage, is marriage for you?
My answer is yes.
God bless you,